I should write about more serious stuff like politics and culture issues.

I will.

and they will be ex....wait for it....plosive!

Stick around and find out.

peace.

What?

Submitted my Endeavour Scholarship application minutes ago. Anxiety and relieved came rushing at the same time when I click the "Submit" button. I hate scholarship applications.

Starting to wonder whether academic is really for me. All those readings, literature review, data collecting, data analysis, final write ups are getting kind of tiring. Intellectual conversations can be really brain cell consuming!

Well, I think writing is not for me? not in English anyway...

The self-doubting stuff is coming around again, gosh...

Is this gonna be a repetitive pattern every few months??! Fuck.

and I thought puberty was the most difficult part in the growing process. Fuck.

and I say Fuck all the time now. Fuck.

I really wanna say life's wonderful but now life feels like a thousand tonnes heavy on me.

So, what's next? What's gonna happened if I don't get the scholarship?
Continue my graduate study in USM? Get a REAL job?
I don't know. Can I not think about that for now or should I start planning?
People keep asking these questions ALL THE TIME! Man!

Pressure pressure pressure...ahhh...how can we live without it? Its not like we're the one living our lifes anyway, they are. and if we don't live our lives according to their expectation will send us straight to hell. Get that??

Why do I sound like a teenager all over again??

Geeessss...

Save & Throw

Let's make a difference

Let's make this a better world

All you need to do is save a little and throw away a little

Save a little water each time you brush your teeth

Save a plastic bag when you go groceries shopping

Save a piece of paper when you decided to print out anything

Save a little harsh words when you are yelling at somebody

Throw away the negative thoughts you have when you're feeling down

Throw away a little of the stereotyping everytime you're on it or feeling it

Throw away a little of the hatred you feel towards life

Throw away a little of the laziness and the frustration you feel when you're trying to be happy

Just a little of everything...save and throw and you're making a difference

It aint that hard, right?


So, Stop trying to be happy, stop pursuing happiness

Stop and turn around, happiness is there..waiting for you to smile


Oooooo...it rhymes!!! =P

Is it just me or what?

I've been having serious writer's block lately. It has been more than a month and still no output???

I have problems concentrating at work lately since I'm trying to get some writing doen, I'm not sure whether its because of the environment (people walking in and out and constant chattering voices while you're trying to write something smart) or is it just me?


Geess...life is hard, aint it?

LoL!