Home Sweet Home? NOT!

Just got home not long ago, so many things to do...
I'm feeling like shit. I haven't really been sleeping since the last 36 hours.
I'm exhausted but I can't rest yet. Too many things to do.

I know how everyone keep saying that Its good to be home and stuff...
Well, it sure aint what I'm feeling right now.
My mom is away in China, the house is in a total mess,
I've been cleaning since the moment I got home.
Home sweet home?? NOT!!
Awaits are dirty bathroom, dusty bedroom, disguting kitchen...
Plus...I'm kinda of a neatfreak.
This is the last thing I need now....
I still need to unpack all my stuff,the lotion leaked and now its all over my lugage,
I need to pack again to go back to USM tomorrow, I need to gather myself,
mentally and physically...I'm not feeling good.

Somehow I feel so alone now, How i wish my mom is right here with me now, I miss her so much, I need to talk to her. I need to figure out why I'm feeling so depressed and stress out.
Not like I don't want to come back, just that this is not the home welcoming I'm expecting.
I'm not sure whether any of you understand any of this, I'm not even sure whether I'm making any sense but I need to get this out of my chest,pronto!
To make things worse, even my newly painted nails are ruined, thanks to all the cleaning and wiping!!! argh..!!!!!! I don't even wanna think about all those stuffs that i need to sette back in school!

All those that had happened in the past 4 months is just like a dream, a beautiful dream.
No doubt I'll miss everything back there very badly but...Now, I need to get my fat ass back to reality.
I suppose once all things have fallen into place, I get back to my old social life,
familiar again with the not-so-flattering environment, I'll be good as new.
Take a deep breath, try to be brave or at least try to pretend to be and start convince myself that I can do anything!!

Gotta go now. More laundry to be done, a dirty kitchen needs to be cleaned, bedsheets that need to be changed, luggages that need to be unpacked....
I just wish my mom can be here now...

p/s: I'll update on the pictures as soon as I get my lappie fix.