Friday Night

Friday night, I’m standing on the stair leading towards my room, Fumi’s room. I checked out of my old room today, sad to leave really, having been staying there for more than 2 years now and then came along this bitch that ruined everything. Well, it’s not entirely fair to put all the blame on her as I should bear some of the responsibility as well but she just not that kind of person I would be associated with. Ever. Went to fetch the rest of my stuff, suddenly I feel so out of place, like I don’t belong here anymore, like I don’t belong to anywhere. Maybe it’s because all the people I know are not in their room tonight when I needed them the most, maybe it’s just because I’m all alone.

Friday night, I’m standing on the stair leading towards my, Fumi’s room. I’m staring at the busy traffic on the road, lost in own thoughts. It’s a Friday night, everyone is going somewhere with someone and I’m here, staring at the traffic. It’s the colorful lights that have attracted my attention in the first place. The street lights, the head lights, the tail lights, reflect how busy the road is, I can hear the noise of the traffic from here, even though the road is quite far away. Looking at the busy road, listening to the noise from the road, can’t help wondering where those cars’ destination might be.
It’s a bit windy tonight; I can feel the wind brushes through my hair, patting my face, reminding me that I’m still alive. I feel at peace, quiet yet lonely. Got used to being surrounded by people, but maybe it’s time to spend some time alone with myself. Guess that I’m feeling insecure about myself; I don’t feel at ease with myself and that is never a good thing. I tend to get lost once in a while, sometimes I don’t even know who I am, what I am suppose to do anymore. Frustrated and depress all the time, fortunately that don’t happen very often. That’s a relief.

Its a quarter pass one in the morning, I’m in my room typing away. Outside is all quiet now. Planned to sleep early tonight but had a visitor in our room just now, she just left but nevertheless, we had a pleasant time. Have I mentioned I now have the cutest roommate ever??
Well..I couldnt ask for more having a roommate like this, she's so darn cute la~~

Spending another 2 weeks or so in the campus, mostly will be going to friend's convo.
Then, go back and pack my stuff and get my ass to Canada to freeze.