心在跳

''我要对你多好 你要爱我多少有什么重要
也许答案得走过天涯海角 最后才知道 听得见你心在跳
最重要." - 黎明 <心在跳>

刚刚看着电视中播放四川救灾的特别节目，黎明唱了这首“心在跳“。
他在台上唱着，台下的观众神色凝重，有的更不停地掉眼泪。
耳朵听着这首歌，眼睛看着电视荧幕，
脑子里浮现的却是多年前母亲将耳朵紧贴着我胸膛的画面。
多年前曾经患上哮喘病，很多时候都会气喘不过来，尤其在晚上天气转凉的时候。
那时候母亲常常会在我睡之前或在我睡了之后，将耳朵贴上我胸膛，听听我的呼吸，
我也一直怀疑，母亲在听我的呼吸的同时，也在听我的心跳声，
因为那时候我的呼吸声代表着我的身体状况，
所以有时她听着听着就微笑着让我睡觉去，
有时听着听着会看到她邹着眉头，心里也明白自己又让母亲担心了。

电视里的四川特别节目诉说着母亲的伟大，
多少母亲牺牲了自己的性命，只为保住孩儿的命。
其中，救护人员在一名身子已经冰冷母亲的怀里发现了一名安然无恙的婴儿 和一封短信。
短信里写着：
“亲爱的宝贝，
如果你活了下来，要记住妈妈永远爱你！”

泪水在眼眶里打转，感动的是母亲的无私，
那种伟大无私的爱，论谁都会感动。

庆幸自己的好运气。
因为，比起四川无数失去亲人，失去家园的灾民，
我，拥有太多了。

四川，加油！！

能够听见你的心在跳，

最重要。

A Saturday Adventure

I drove to Penang last Saturday with Jun on the ride to meet Vicky before she head back home. It was a bit nerve wrecking.
See, the thing is I don't get many chances to drive throughout the entire semester and the last time I ever drove to Penang was about a year ago. So when I tell you that it was a bit nerve wrecking, you get the picture. =P
I went to pick up Jun from some petrol station since I have no idea where her house is and she is not very good at giving directions.(dear, you know its true..hehehehe) so we have to meet up somewhere I know.^^ and so the journey begins...

There was this stupid traffic jam at the bridge that Saturday, and according to Jun,its always like that on a Saturday afternoon.
We got off the bridge alright and my confidence was coming back. When we were on our way to Gurney, Jun was shaken up a bit when a car came too close when I tried to by pass him but other than that,we got to Gurney in one piece.
Then there was this funny and bizzarre scene occured in front of the Gurney Plaza front door. Before we reached Gurney, I told Jun I was a bit scared to drive up to Gurney's parking lot and so we decided we would switch places when we arrived at Gurney and Jun would be the one to drive up to the parking lot. So the car halted to a stop in front of the front gate of Gurney Plaza and we both got out of the car as quickly as possible and switch places, now the difficult part was to do it without embrassing ourselves too much but both of us do looked extremely awkard at that time and if there was anyone who know us was there,they would probably laugh their pants off. Fortunately there weren't any.
After we switched places, Jun's adventure with a automobile begun. First, she nearly had my face slap against the windshield when she hit the break too hard and then, I started to wonder whether it was a good decision for us to switch places and I bet she had the same thought too.
Nevertheless,we were lucky there was an instant parking spot for us and Jun even learnt a thing or two about auto cars. Good God, we arrived safely at Gurney and parked at a space that overlook the ocean, I said to her that it was a million dollar view. (Not dunno how many billion view la sayang.) At least the view is nice from far~

We didn't managed to watch The Indiana Jones 4 as three of us didn't wish to have a neck sprained after the movie so we went to get a bite and chatted away. Then we hit two book fairs, bought yet another book by Jane Austen,titled Emma. Its already my 2nd book of the week,"Darn, I really should stop buying books but the bargains were just too hard to resist".
I even texted Vince to ask him whether Emma is a good book. Well, he suddenly stop replying my msg so I have to make my own decision based on my own judgement. (Vince claimed that he was half asleep at that time, hmmmm...I cant quite remember the last time he wasn't sleepy. hahahaha..)

Vicky looked a bit terrified when she heard Jun and I discussing who should drove back to USM and when I said I want to try, she looked even petrified. Hmmmm.....
She tried to put on the back seat seatbelt once she was in the car but I think the seatbelt wasn't working anymore cause nobody ever tried to fasten it. She was very quiet all the way back.
We said our goodbyes and farewells at M04 then Jun and I departed home. Picked up my bro along the way and sent Jun back to where I picked her up in the day. It was raining then.

All in all, I got everyone back safely and in one piece. Huurrayy for me!!! and Bravo for them!! for having the guts to sit in my car when I was behind the wheels.
hehehhe...it wasn't so bad, I wasn't so bad either.

Cheers!!! Let's do it again some other time!!!

Exam Result

The exam result of last semester is out on our university portal.
My result came out dissapointing and much worse than what i'd got last 2 semester ago.
My stupid minor drag me down,as it always does. A B- with 4 credit hours can do a severe damage to my overall pointer and with a not so strong overall grades, my pointer is not over 3.2 which is very dissapointing for a student like me.
I cant comfort myself saying that a pointer over 3 is good enough, knowing that with that kind of pointer and grades, I am losing out. As unwillingly as I want to be, I am a made competitor and I definitely don't like to lose out my competitive spot.
Damn...I am now convinced I went for the wrong minor,maybe i should have went for the easy scorer like everyone else did. sigh....
My major subject didnt do so well either,no As,mostly Bs...
not a very convincing start eh,bumpy road ahead and i DOn't think I'm prepared.
urgh...there goes my self esteem and confidence.

I'm miserable. I'll just go and sulk for the rest of the day.

You Can Make a Difference

The recent earth quake at Sze Chuan had caught the attention all over the world, people were shocked and mourned with sadness.As we read about those news in the newspaper or on tv and let out a few gasps of shock at the footage we witnessed on how people's life have been destroyed or taken, heart broken by what we've seen. Do you realise how lucky you are to be able to breath freely when at the same time someone is grasping for air to survive??

Tsunami on the end of year 2004, the recent taufan landed on Myammar and the earthquake at Sze Chuan, could all these natural disasters be the way of mother nature telling us we have done enough damage to the earth and its time we start to do something about it?
Lots might say,"Hey, I'm only one person, I can't change the world!".
Yes, but you do can make a difference by starting not to let the water run along when you brush your teeth, by starting take less plastic bags when you go shopping for groceries and by starting recycling.
Some might say," Oh fuck it, all these will only bring inconvenience to me, so why should I do all those shit??"
Well, there are the possibility that the same thing could just happen to you. Imagine what if its your love ones that got buried alive under those concretes or being washed away by the waves?
Don't leave any space for regrets that we haven't done enough to prevent those from happening.
Those natural disasters will just keep on coming if we don't do something about it. Every small things we do, like turn off the lights when not in use, although by doing it might not seem like we change the world, but believe it or not, we are making a difference,even a small one.
You'll never know, you might be the one who saved the world or destroyed it. Take your pick.

Appreciated what you have with you now, don't regret it when its too late.
Go give your love ones a big hug and tell them how much you love them.
I bet you've seen those photos of the Sze Chuan earthquake victims, heart breaking isn't it? Don't let that happen to you.
Make a difference, make the world a better place starting by don't let the tap open when you brush your teeth tonight. Its as simple as that.

A Belated Summary

Some people complaint I don't update enough wor,
so here goes my 2nd blog of the day.
Alright alright, I know I havent been writing much these past few months.
So here is the summary of what has happened during the past few months or better, the past semester.

My choice of majoring and minoring has basically marked the hectic, heavy academy life that I'm going to have for the last 3 semesters I have.
Finance + Economics, what was I thinking??!!!
Something or someone must have got into my mind on that day we were suppose to choose our major and minor.
Fine, I'm just going to live and deal with it the best I could.
The semester wasn't easy, I had some tough times througout the semester,
I was even lost for a while. The worst part was, I even got sick on my 21st birthday!!! Ugh!!
Well,at least I got a really really unforgettable 21st birthday.Duh~~~
but having less time hanging out with the clique I used to be with was a bit tough since we have very different schedules.
Fortunately things still turn out to be good for us. Amitabha...
Love you girls always!
Ohh...I hung out with my "tutor" a lot for the past semester and it was damn fun too!!!hahaha...love her too!
erm....what else...oh oh oh,my english is getting better, and my Hokkien too!!! Yayyyy!! ^^Y
and then bla bla bla, the semester went on,
Did couples of farewells(miss Wandee tremendously),
met some new friends(this is the best part of being a buddy student,hehehe)
Celebrated David's 20th Birthday at Khaleel.(Hmm...its a bit bizzarre to celebrate bday there if you ask me) but it was still a blast!
Learn a few french words,(Melanie is the best french teacher ever! Ulala~)
Hmmmm...fell in love with Borders and the coziness of Starbucks (it's my favourite hang out spot though its insanely expensive)
Ohh..cant leave out the regular stressful period at the end of the semester with all those crazy deadlines and final exam.
Exam finished, everyone went crazy,bla bla bla...
and finally packed up and
HOME!!!

So there you go,
the summary of my last past semester that went by just like that.
Ulala~~~



My "lovely" French teacher

Memories

You know that kind of memories flashback you get when certain songs are being played
or when you're looking at certain pictures taken?
I've been getting that quite a lot lately and it's not just a memory flashback,
I can actually remember how I felt at that particular time when I heard those songs,
the faces and voices are clear although those incidents might had taken place about a year ago,
my memories are alive!!!
hahahhaa..its a good thing though because luckily those are happy memories,
memories that i want to keep alive as long as possible!

That day i read my friendster blogs,Damn am I glad I wrote all those shits back then!!
All those hedeous and silly memories, laughters and cries, sweet and sour of life one year or more ago reappears right in front of me like it was just yesterday all of that happened.
I'm not the same person I was a year ago, we all have been growing up all these years.
Along these years I am blessed with people that makes my life colourful and worth living for.
Those moments we stood by each other's side, helping each other to get through all those tough times,sharing laughters and of course those unforgettable silly moments^^).
All those are my precious treasure that I will never trade with anything else.

Here is to all my friends that love me for who I am, with flaws that sometimes drive people nuts.
hahahha...more beautiful memories to come!
I'm glad I have all of you with me.
Cheerss!!!

Pour Your Heart Into It.

Bought a copy of "Pour Your Heart Into It" by Howard Schultz,CEO and Chairman of Starbucks about 2 weeks ago but I just got it today. Now, the book i believe is back in Penang at Jasmine's place. Told her to bring it back because i want to save the book til I'm in Penang next month, and i wish to read it in Starbucks. C'mon, where else is more perfect to read the book by the CEO and Chairman of Starbucks than in Starbucks itself.

This afternoon i was at Sunday Carnival's Starbucks with Jasmine, I had the book in my hand and suddenly this thought hit me: I want to finish this book in Starbucks. Don't care.

Any cup of Starbucks coffee would go nicely with this book.

Shepherd's pie

This is the 1st ever decent food i ever had in Starbucks. No offense but the food in the cafe I have tried before were not very satisfying. Their Shepherd's pie(thanks dear alvin) turnout to be surprisingly nice. With mashed potato on top of chicken seasoned with pepper, the pie was actually quite tasty. We were looking for some decent food to fill our tummy before our 3 o'clock movie (Speed racer 2008). Nothing was very appealing to us(had enough of Sake for now), and Starbucks was cozy enough to lure us into it.

The movie was so so, storyline and the directing were a bit blur i would say. The whole movie didn't really hit my expectation except for the speed racing and drifting part. The effects was cool but other than that, i wont recommend it. Ok ok ok, i admit, I wanted to see how Rain did in his 1st ever hollywood film. Well, i like him better when he's singing and dancing. ^^

This is one of the interesting part of the movie: Speeding and Drifting

Am going to catch Iron Man next time.

Next time...

Piano

Another lazy day spent at home. Loving it!

Finally spent some time on my piano
and i seriously need to spend more time practicing. ^^

Notes that nearly been forgotten

Still, Beethoven remains one of my favourites

Havent been able to play the piano as often as I would love to since matriculation college
Playing piano is like writing your diary, you pour your feeling in it and people can hear how you feel when the melody flows through the air through your fingers.

That is the power of music.
and that's what make composers like mozart and beethoven famous,

their ability to make people feel how they felt with their music.

Another lazy afternoon well spent with books and piano and of course, TV!

Cheers!!!